Sunday, March 7, 2010

Love, God and Nature

Every day of mine starts with a prayer. I pray after taking bath, in order to keep my body and soul pure(?). I pray by singing (saying!!) the praise of various Gods in order(!) viz., Lord Ganesha, Mother Sakthi, Mother saraswati, Lord Shiva and so on, as taught by my parents, dedicating a couple of lines for each God, in sanskrit, a language which i don't know, and it gets over in a couple of minutes, max.
After this, i get into the routine of arguing with my wife for forgetting to press my shirt, cursing my manager for scheduling an early meeting by 10:30 AM, getting tense over school going kids zig-zagging on their bikes before my car and reach work relaxed!
One fine day, somebody whom i never knew before, stopped me near my office gate and asked me "What kind of a person are you?" Immediately, i gave that "corporate" smile, pretended to tighten my tie knot, and said, "umm, I am very spiritual, a person who believes in the existence of Atma, always like to help others, and I believe the best about me is, I am very honest about myself".
However, after reaching office, if i didn't have much work to do, I walk out of our office campus to watch a couple, who beg for a living. The man should be in his 90's and the woman should be in her late 80's. The man has a very poor eye sight, and the woman had lost hers. They usually come walking very slowly towards the pavement near the entry of our campus, by 9:00 in the morning. All the time, the man will be holding the hands of the woman, and walk her slowly with him! Mornings are the worst in Chennai, because of its heat and humidity, and the pavement these couple move towards, does not have a shelter for them to sit. So, after reaching the pavement, the old man will cautiously make the woman sit beside him, and he'll stand in such a position, that his shadow covers her from direct Sunlight! When i watched them first, it was this act that made me curious, and as i started observing them over and over again, i started seeing that each and every act of theirs revealed the boundless love they had on each other!
After observing enough, my curiosity levels heightened and pushed me to talk with them a couple of months back.
"Don't you have a home ?"
"We live in a tent.. a couple miles away"
"So, you walk a couple of miles every day? Why wont you leave this blind lady behind? Do you think people will give you more money if they see this blind lady with you, old man?"
For this, the man just shook his head as if it is not the case, and took the eyes off me. I realized, he felt guilty about it. After a while, the lady answered,
"I don't want to send this poor old man alone.."
Both of them smiled at me together. I saw God. Shouldn't they be ageless? Nature is very cruel sometimes. No, most of the times. But God isn't.
After this, i feel like just standing and watching them over and over again, and by doing so, i realized all my wife cursing, manager cursing attitude, went out of me slowly. I still say prayers after taking bath as my parents taught me, but watching this couple is giving me what those prayers couldn't.

Yes I am spiritual.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

This is my very first blog, i feel like i'm addressing a million audience, very nervous not knowing what to write here, feeling shy to leave this space empty.. Naming this with my feel "Blogophobia".. Lets see if I can update any useful information in the future, and I have a serious doubt.. I will be able to change this title right?